Wednesday, May 11, 2016


This morning I woke up and I couldn't help but ponder God's faithfulness

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23

Thirteen years ago I should have been holding my first-born son in my arms, but I wasn't. I had done everything right... no soft cheese, read all the parenting books, set up the nursery, washed all the clothes in Dreft, stayed on bed rest when ordered, kept you in until your due date, but...

After birth, Caleb was swept away to the NICU, hooked up to things, and put in a tent.
My first view of my son, was from behind glass with my family.
All the snuggles and nursing I imagined in the first minutes of life, were gone.

I finally got to touch him, hours later, when I could put my hand through the hole,
after scrubbing in and suiting up in the NICU.

Life happens, doesn't it. Things don't work out the way they should... or the way WE THINK they should.

Here I am, exactly 13 years later, with a healthy, happy, bouncing not-so-baby boy. 

Life continued to happen. We have had amazing times that I could blog about forever... cuddles, vacations, award ceremonies, mission trips, loving friends and family, dreams coming true, And so, so many difficult times... that time the school went on lock down over him because someone threatened to take him, being in the ER with his head split open (can you say staples!), my single mom days, the daily challenges every human faces whether big or small that wear on the soul. The tears he has cried; the tears I have cried, with him, and over him.

But God. His faithfulness. While life has been a roller coaster, God has always been there, keeping His promise.

His peace never left us. His joy every present. Through every sunny sky we have woken to and every storm that has rolled in, one thing has remained constant - Great is God's Faithfulness!

Happy 13th Birthday Baby Boy! I'm so thankful that as I thought of you today, you reminded me of this.

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